Career Builder
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Yesterday, I was taking this call from a client around 7 pm since he is in California. I ended up cooking late, not talking to Hoen, going to the gym late and just putting off what I was supposed to do wait for this very important call. When we were at the gym, that's when I realized that I didn't want a career that would prevent me from spending time with my family. I don't want to be one of those wives and mothers who might be physically around but actually aren't.
And that's when I felt depressed. I told Hoen that I really want to think about what career I need to pursue because I have the luxury of time now. I am enjoying what I'm doing now but it's not actually a career I can build on. It's just something I can learn from. I told Hoen that I don't mind getting a job that would suck the life out of me during the day but night time, when I'm at home, I'm really at home. Or something that will allow me to work from home and that trend is getting more and more popular now. But I couldn't narrow it down! I have always been good at a lot of things but best at nothing. A Jack of all Trades, a Master of none. But really, seriously, I NEED TO KNOW ALREADY WHAT I WANT TO BE AND WHAT I WANT TO DO! I have gone trhough living this life working without building a career. I mean, yes, I am still going to take a Masters Degree but to work on what?? I don't know! One thing I do know is that Hoen and I should ideally put up a business of building websites. He develops it, I can design. And that is why I have started learning web design. SLOW BY SLOW. But still, that does not really define the career I want to have. That can just be something we can do on the side.
Aarrggh. I can teach! I can make bags! I can organize events! I can plan weddings! I can manage projects! I can do research! I can do almost anything people want me to do except make up my mind about what I want to do. I had wanted to chat with Leg and Buttwipe about it but Leg was busy and so I ended up talking to Buttwipe and Jown. They all echoed what Hoen told me. That no matter what kind of job I have, it really is up to me to set the boundaries and lay down the ground rules. They are right on all counts. I just hope I can get over my OCness for getting things done. Maybe I should talk to a Career adviser.
Good news. I felt better when I woke up.
And that's when I felt depressed. I told Hoen that I really want to think about what career I need to pursue because I have the luxury of time now. I am enjoying what I'm doing now but it's not actually a career I can build on. It's just something I can learn from. I told Hoen that I don't mind getting a job that would suck the life out of me during the day but night time, when I'm at home, I'm really at home. Or something that will allow me to work from home and that trend is getting more and more popular now. But I couldn't narrow it down! I have always been good at a lot of things but best at nothing. A Jack of all Trades, a Master of none. But really, seriously, I NEED TO KNOW ALREADY WHAT I WANT TO BE AND WHAT I WANT TO DO! I have gone trhough living this life working without building a career. I mean, yes, I am still going to take a Masters Degree but to work on what?? I don't know! One thing I do know is that Hoen and I should ideally put up a business of building websites. He develops it, I can design. And that is why I have started learning web design. SLOW BY SLOW. But still, that does not really define the career I want to have. That can just be something we can do on the side.
Aarrggh. I can teach! I can make bags! I can organize events! I can plan weddings! I can manage projects! I can do research! I can do almost anything people want me to do except make up my mind about what I want to do. I had wanted to chat with Leg and Buttwipe about it but Leg was busy and so I ended up talking to Buttwipe and Jown. They all echoed what Hoen told me. That no matter what kind of job I have, it really is up to me to set the boundaries and lay down the ground rules. They are right on all counts. I just hope I can get over my OCness for getting things done. Maybe I should talk to a Career adviser.
Good news. I felt better when I woke up.
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