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Buh-bye FDR
Friday, March 21, 2008

It was Hoen's last day at First Data today but somehow, I'm the one who feels sad. Although we will still be hooking up with the other couples, it would be weird not to get updates on how they are from time to time. But change is good; I like change, as long as it's stable. Come Monday, he will be a Planeteer.

Bad Mom. Bad, bad Mom
Sunday, March 16, 2008

People who know me know that I dream the most bizarre dreams, and in color too. But last night marked an all time weirdness. I had my first dream about being a mother. I had a baby that I kept losing or dropping. I swear, I would hold it by the neck and drop it on the floor. I dropped it on the couch and so I picked it up by the leg and brought it back on the couch where I pretty much left it to be. One time I slept forgetting where my baby was and the next morning, it was on the crib crying. Hoen looks at me and assures me that IT (he or she) is ok and so I nod my head and went back to sleep. The last part was the weirdest. I was trying to breastfeed it but my nipples were not swollen at all. It’s almost as if I was never pregnant. So the baby, my baby, had a hard time trying to suck all the lactose out of me. I got so mad that I, get this, TOSSED it to where Hoen was and he feeds it through a bottle.

What does this mean? I don’t think I’ll ever know. But for what it’s worth, this just confirms that I’m not quite ready to be a mother just yet.

Pamawi

I miss blogging. The reason I miss it is connectivity. I feel disconnected every time I fail to chronicle any of my latest experiences that I would want to remember, 6 days, 6 months or 6 years from now. So much has happened that, lo and behold, it is the month of March, Winter is just about to end and Spring really wants to creep in and dominate the stage. But I heard that this weekend is going to be snowing again, or even tomorrow, Friday, and that just makes me mad. I am done. I am sick of winter. Please, dear Sir Winter, it is YOUR turn to hibernate. I want to expose my toes, arm pits and nape. Just … go away, please, I beg of you. People who have been born and raised in Omaha can’t get used to it, they just deal with it, and I guess I just have to.

Which state do we move to next? North Carolina perhaps? Anyway…

1) Work. Work has been great. After a rather challenging 2 months trying to pin down the Reinstatement Quotes project, we went to Production 2 days ago. Finally! After much liaising and asking the question, “What does that mean?” over and over I said it in my sleep, we went Live! Even if it took some 4 hours more to wait for the server and security problems to get fixed, we accomplished a huge thing that day. We have quite a long Laundry List to go and we will break it up between our April and May releases. But I’m really excited for the E-Payment and Fraternal Reporting System project. It will take some juggling but as Bret and Keith say, “We have complete faith in you.” Sher, why not.

2) Health. I still have polyps, yes, and so if this hormone therapy I have been on for 2 months doesn’t work, I am going to switch to these antibiotics in case it’s cervicitis. If THAT doesn’t work, ambut. I have maintained the 104 to 108 lbs. range so I am happy, happy, happy. One time I missed 2 days of weigh monitoring and when I got on the scale, I was a wussy 102. lbs! Ack! Hoen tells me my butt is firmer and rounder and that makes him happy and me, happier. When I try to fold my arms together, I feel some hilly contouring on my arms (goal: Jessica Biel arms!) and that makes me happy too. But the fact that I can get on an incline of 15, a resistance between 3-4, a heart rate of 162 for 30 straight minutes, is a milestone. I can hear my body thank me.

3) Family. My mom is doing better diabetes-wise. Her blood sugar has been stabilized for over a year now and she has been taking that Boston-C concoction which worked a miracle on her level of activity. She can sleep well now, 8 hours straight, and her feet are NOT swollen anymore AT ALL. That is such good news. The only clincher right now is that one night, my dad forgot to set the timer for the air conditioning and so my mom’s legs were exposed to the cold temperature the entire night. She woke up with a nagging right knee the next day. Her arthritis tends to last longer now that she’s in her 60s and so my Dad gave her a cane to support herself with temporarily. I send her rather authoritative texts and emails to “Move, move, move!” because she was never really the active type.

Megan has been sending me the sweetest emails. At an age where everything is going for her in school, her musical group and with her friends, the fact that she takes the time to send me rather lengthy emails just to tell me that she misses me or that she loves me just warms me up like a cup’a.

Jones just got her US visa! She got into this Rotary Club program and got the Exchange student deal for a month. She will be doing reports for schools in Maine, New Hampshire and Massachusetts. When her program ends on May 5th, she will go to Chicago to see Ate Joyce and Tita Joy and then quite possibly, Omaha after. I volunteered to take care of her Chicago-Omaha-Chicago fare so that Joen and I don’t have to pay 2 fares worth back and forth. Not in this economy, nosiree. We’re still finalizing her IT but we are so looking forward to her coming over!

4) Marriage. Hoen is still yummy, I still prefer watching him watch TV than anything in the world. I am physically and sexually attracted to him and I think that’s why I never get tired of looking at him. I also feel the need to always touch him. Is it the weather? Maybe. But I am getting needier and needier of his touches. It’s his fault, he is always warm, and so a snuggle goes a long way. Of course, it doesn’t go both ways, sad to say, but he is obsessed with me in other gestures, ahahaha. Just last night, I gave him a shampooing-head-massaging on the sink ala hair salon and he loved it. If not for the chair he was sitting on, it could’ve lasted longer. Too bad I let the costumer stow away the chair and towels after my “service”, hehe.

5) School. Anne, Zoe and I see each other every Saturday to study for the GMAT together. Last Saturday, they came over to the house and I served them escabeche fish, palabok and maja blanca. They loved it! And our GMAT studying that day was the best so far. It was so funny how with one question we would either have 3 different approaches and have 3 different answers or have 3 different approaches and the same answer. But Zoe’s strength is her ability to make equations right away (as a Beijing Chinese, she is predisposed to be good in Math). Anne’s strength is that she gets the question right away and she’s also quite good with equations. My strength would be arithmetic and spatial reasoning. So if you make me multiply 19 with 19, I can do it with no calculator help, but I suck suck suck at equations! Sundays are devoted to Economics. Zoe and I met up with Lolita for the first time last Sunday and it was just so productive that we intend to do it every Sunday. So Saturdays, we do GMAT. Sundays, we do Economics. And that’s how it’s going to be until the month of May. Poor Hoen. Our ECON professor, Scott, loves to single out a bunch of us in class and I’m glad I am one of them.

6) Friends. The other week I had a dream about a shoe shot. A Harem shoe shot that is. That was just it, a frame of a shoe shot. I didn’t quite understand what the point was until last night when Buttwipe asked me to look for this pair of shoes for her. I told her she would be a narrow while Leg, Doogie and I would be a Medium. And that’s when it struck me. Last week at the office, a former nurse colleague said that our feet, depending on the shoes we wear, and our age. I remember wondering whether the 4 of us would have the same feet size forever. And last night, after she asked me that favor, I remembered what my colleague told us. Could it be that Buttwipe has a different width size now than the rest of us?

I’m sure there’s lots more to say and blog about but that should about do it. ‘Til next month? Hehe. NOT!

He's done it
Wednesday, March 05, 2008

After three weeks of almost daily interviews, after three weeks of tossing and turning, after three weeks of leaving the office early or finding a room to take a phone interview in, Hoen has found a new job. After being torn between Planet Consulting and ASCIT (both small and well reputed consulting companies in Omaha, by the way), he chose Planet Consulting. Not only did they have a more defined INTERNAL role and project scope for him, he will be working under Robert Stamps, a former First Data employee who is known for taking good care of those who work under him. ASCIT gave a higher offer but with no idea as to which company he was going to be placed or what language he is going to be using ,Planet's more defined proposal won out. Eventually, Planet matched ASCIT's offer. So all's fair!

Thank you Lord for all the signs and for enlightening us with the wisdom of making this very hard decision.