Crapping 99
Sunday, January 21, 2007
Ok. Before I really go out of my mind over my weight, I just want to accept the fact that I am 99 lbs and HAVE BEEN 99 lbs. ever since we got back from the Philippines. If I hadn't gotten sick on the plane, if I didn't have to run for 15 minutes to make it to our gate, if I wasn't hit with exhaustion, if I didn't have the worst bout of homesickness YET, I would still be well into my goal of 105 lbs. My wedding gown weight was 103 and as soon as the wedding was over, I tried my best to overeat (and Leg and Doogie are witnesses to this). My mom even told me on the day we were to fly that I DID look like I gained some weight. I read the scale and I was indeed 105. I was ecstatic! The New Year started right!
And now here I am. Grumbling to no end at my disgusting, emaciated body. I hate being thin. Being thin reminds me only of one thing- getting sick, loss of potassium, malnutrition and just recently, Nicole Richie. So now, I eat 5 - 6 times a day, every 2 hours if I can. Because of my MVP, I cannot do away with doing cardio so I still do 20 minutes on the treadmill although I just started running yesterday. My mission is to have bagel and cream cheese everyday until I reach my ideal weight which is 105 lbs. I have done this for the past 3 days now and so far, it has rendered good results. I weighed in this morning and I was 100.6! YEY!!! Less .2 for poopoo, that's 100.4 lbs. Still a YEY!!!
I wanted to show a pic of my stickthin figure but I was disgusted just looking at it so, nah. Never mind.
And now here I am. Grumbling to no end at my disgusting, emaciated body. I hate being thin. Being thin reminds me only of one thing- getting sick, loss of potassium, malnutrition and just recently, Nicole Richie. So now, I eat 5 - 6 times a day, every 2 hours if I can. Because of my MVP, I cannot do away with doing cardio so I still do 20 minutes on the treadmill although I just started running yesterday. My mission is to have bagel and cream cheese everyday until I reach my ideal weight which is 105 lbs. I have done this for the past 3 days now and so far, it has rendered good results. I weighed in this morning and I was 100.6! YEY!!! Less .2 for poopoo, that's 100.4 lbs. Still a YEY!!!
I wanted to show a pic of my stickthin figure but I was disgusted just looking at it so, nah. Never mind.
posted by maudester @ 12:55 AM
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